VBS

*sigh* What happens if you stick a bunch of teenagers together?

Drama.

This is... Interesting to say the least. Is it fair of me to judge someone based on his or her actions when those actions are pretty consistent, and the only variable of those actions is the receiver?

Hint #1: Grow up.
Hint #2: If someone says "this is what's going on. Fix it." then you fix it. Unless of course you WANT to lose a friend.
Hint #3: BOUNDARIES. They exist. Respect them.

work

I just got home from 7 hours of work, only to check the schedule and see that I'm scheduled to work:

Wednesday, June 29: 7pm-9:30pm

Thursday, June 30: 7pm-9:30pm

Friday, July 1: 5pm-10pm (but I'm only backup, so PLEASE pray for icky weather!!!)

Saturday, July 2: 5pm-10pm

Sunday, July 3: 10am-5pm

Monday, July 4: 10am-5pm

SHOOT ME NOW!! Please! Seriously, just put me out of my misery. Because on top of that, it's VBS week.

Maybe Mom will switch with me for Friday...

Worn Out Jeans

My pillow is soaked with countless tears
My heart is torn with countless hurts
Every day I use myself up
I tell myself
I won't cry
I won't hurt
But every day
My tears fall a little more
Like a waterfall of pain
My heart tears just one more time
Like a worn-down pair
Of my favorite old jeans
Worn
Torn
And loved
But thrown away
Replaced
Forgotten
My tears keep coming
My heart keeps hurting
And you
You keep throwing me away
Like an old, un-loved pair
Of worn out jeans.

Babysitting :)

So, I'm babysitting my mom's friend's kids, and they are the sweetest things in the world! Their names are Evan and Eli, and they're just adorable. Evan LOVES to pretend, and Eli just has the sweetest disposition. He loves to be tickled, and he'll stop crying only like 10 seconds after he starts. They're both sooo cute, and they were so easy to put to bed. Easiest kids I've ever babysat (not that I've babysat that much).

Who likes being used???

Not me.

So.

I'm not a cab driver. I don't give rides because you're too lazy to catch your bus or because you don't feel like catching it.

Get yourself up, and deal with what I had to deal with.

I will give you a ride if you need one, or if it's inconvenient for you to find another way home. AND at my discretion.

I have no car of my own, and I drive to school sporadically.

You can't be rude to me or ignore me then expect rides. You can't "all of a sudden" become my friend and simultaneously ask for rides.

Real friends don't use people for their car/license.

RIP

This past Saturday, Mike Sawyer drowned in the Susquehanna River. He was a junior at HHS and was very well-loved and popular. The whole school is mourning him.
It seems like this school is just a magnet for pain and hurt. How is that even fair? And not just school-wide pain, but personal pain. It seems like everyone is hurting in some way or another. My heart hurts for these hurting people, and I wish I were in a condition to help them...