:) :/ :( :'( >_< :/

haha. I'm on an emotional roller coaster. Again.
THIS. ISNT. FAIR!!! Why in the world does he have so much control over me?!?!? And WHEN IN THE WORLD did this happen??????

Anyways, after our major fight on Monday, we... reached an understanding, I guess. But he kept trying to talk to me, and I kept telling him not to. I finally had to cuss him out and threaten his face before he finally stopped talking to me. But now that I'm not talking to him, he's taking so much of my mental space, especially when I'm tired. What does that mean? It means I go from being happy :) to upset :/ to sad :( to crying :'( to mad >_<>
It's awful. And because of that, I couldn't focus on my AP Euro final today. Because of course, I don't need to focus on one of my most important, probably most difficult finals of the year. :/

VENT ALERT!!!!

GRRRRR!!! some people just... grr.

so, ian's last day of school was friday. meaning he's not in school to be at his locker, so i now have 7-8 (ish) inches of free space to the left of my locker.
its awful. and it makes me smile when people are sympathetic (thank you!) because some people are like, so? who cares?
i translate this to:
who cares that one of your best friends no longer attends the same school as you? who cares if you won't get to see him every day now? who cares if next week starts a month long period of time during we will not talk as often as we do now, we will most definitely NOT see each other, and im dreading that time, and already miss him like crazy?? WHO FREAKING CARES?!?

ok. im done now. YAY for blogs that don't have to be happy all the time *sad smile*