The band :)

I am so happy and blessed to be a part of this amazing group.  They are the best group of guys I could have asked for.  We always have so much fun together, but we know how to focus when we need to.  Thank you so much for making me feel like I'm actually part of the band, even though I'm a girl and my only instrument is my voice.  You guys have no clue how much you mean to me :)

I LOVE YOU!!!!

My music

"Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!"

"I'm through accepting limits

'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!"

"As someone told me lately:

"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!"

"This is your life

Are you who you wanna be?

This is your life,

Is it everything you dreamed that it would be when the world was younger

And you had everything to lose?"

Okay, Seriously??

What the heck was I thinking? Why oh why did I have to let my curiosity get the better of me?????????  I asked him why he did what he did, and you know what he said? YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID?!?!?!?!? "Yo era loco, y soy loco" aka "I was crazy and I am crazy." THAT. IS. NOT. AN. ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! buttface. jerkface. :P:P:P:P:P  I could seriously strangle him right now.

*sigh* Why oh why did I do that??

Wordle--Check it!

Learning Through Mistakes

So, I was grounded for... Two weeks, I think.  Something like that.  I wasn't miserable, but I wasn't happy.  And the problem is, I was grounded for going on a date with a guy, then lying to my parents about it.  Not smart, right?  Right.
And I thought it was totally worth it.  For, oh, I don't know, three days? Four?  After this guy had avoided me for three days of school, he showed up to auditions holding the hand of his ex-girlfriend.  You know, the one he told me was with (well, before he broke up with her the first time) "only out of obligation"?  Yeah.  He had spent the entire summer plus the school year before that getting to know me, letting me get to know him, basically putting up this front.  And I trusted him, believed him.  We got along so well.  And, the big warning, the I-should've-seen-it-coming statement, "I won't hurt you. I promise."  Whenever a guy says that, be prepared to get hurt.
So, I feel insanely bi-polar.  Most of the time, I'm just hurt.  But that comes out in a "I really want to strangle you" kind of way.  Thankfully, I manage to keep that stuffed away in some deep dark corner somewhere (most of the time) and pull out my "Well, I hate you but I have to see you every day, so we might as well play nice" self. It's worked, so far. Let's pray that holds, at least until graduation.
If I never see him again, it'll be too soon...